Scatterbrained

so i'm actually having quiet time this week and i'm not quite sure if that's a good or bad thing due to now i'm so confused about me and what i want in life etc. At 21 i thought i would have all of this planned and working on creating it and making it happen... where'd I go wrong with that?! still not positive about my career choice, i'm not sure about the future as far as family goes.. i'm just not sure and that shocks me as well as aggravates me. I wanna know what i want in life. i want to be certain that i'm making somewhat of the right decisions some sense of direction. i guess in due time i'll have it all figured out but... really wish it was right now =\

found this on post sceret and thought it was very fitting... looking back at my past and realize that the stupid idiots that thought i was not good enough well pfft on you cause you just made me a better person. i had a lady asked me if me and dustin were planning on getting married, actually for once i'm in no desire to get married right now. we've been together for over a year and yes we've talked about it but we also it won't happen in the next little bit, but we know that we love each other. this is the first time since i was 14 that the guy hasn't proposed to me in a under a year. so that makes me love him even more cause i feel like when he does propose it'll be from the heart cause he's waiting to the right time to do it. i feel like the other guys just done it in hopes of getting more than i was willing or just out of the trend not because they loved me. Out of the 7 times i got a ring i feel like only one was sincere....